hey loves. guess whos back, back again
HA HA. yays im back on this dumb virtual world after i dono, 2 weeks?

read amandas blog entry (below mine) and jus smsed her. my dear girl don be sad uve got lotsa friends out there perhaps more than i do lar! so what if ppl r happening, u can have a more meaningful life than them! n no matter what i love u i love u i love u! sorry i cnt mt u today cos of my midterm test. we'll meet v v soon ok? please cheer up n be that bubbly darling that i adore. we'll always b here for u no matter whatttt. hugs hugs

n to tell u guys the truth. many times i feel the way amanda felt too. like a loser
like my life's sucha bore.. lifes mundane etc etc.
i look ard n seemed that everyones lifes had smth more than mine
ppl i was close to drfited from me. and such relationships are harder to patch than i ever thought it would be.
i see them getting close to new people. closer than i was ever with them. n somehow made me feel funny n tt sucks. its like why r they happier but im not? why r they movin on but im still stuck here?
i wonder who i am to everybody.
over the year ive been qt confused about friendships. i know that friendships can b deceiving can be fragile can be broken. 2 people may appear close, but in fact they know nth abt each other. the vice versa often occurs as well. theres of cos the trust issue as well. who will bitch about me behind my back, who wont? im sick of friends who r like that. haiyah i dont know what im rambling about actually now that i read the whole paragraph. have no idea what it is im gettin at. this happens so often, like i think n think but at the end of it i dont know what i want exactly.

o well anyway i shall not bore u guys with my ideology of friendship yada yada. hahahs. but u guys, tho we dont appear super close, neither do we really know much abt each other. im real glad we're sucha tight group thru the years. i know i can relate to all of u in some way or another. n that all of u will always give me good vibes, good suggestions, wise opinions, positive comments n make me feel better after i talk to u all. n just to let u know tt all 5 of u r in my circle of trust. (= i hope im in urs tooo! hahahahas. ok whatever. hahas yups so thank u for being u. u crappy stupid bunch. (thats a compliment, not insult) hee :D

so i hope tt whenever any of u feel down. rmb me. rmb our lil group here.
think of the laughs and think of the love.